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Hardcover. Condición: Very Good. No Jacket. On offer is a pair of diaries by a middle-aged mother who began journaling to navigate her identity as a lesbian, while confronting addiction, financial instability, and the pain of raising a troubled child who would die only six months after her final entry. Biographical information on the authorwho identifies herself by name within both volumeswill be shared privately with serious buyers for research and provenance. She was forty-one when she began writing in 1997 and forty-three when she concluded in March 2000. In her first entry she declares her purpose: "This book isabout who I am in this momentMostly it is about sexuality, mine, once lost and now found." [Feb 21, 1997]. Educated, self-aware, and yearning for peace, she records her attempts to stay sober, parent responsibly, and make sense of her loneliness. She attends AA meetings, Sarasota's First Step "Choices" program, and therapy, often reflecting on her progress: "I went to a gay AA meetingcried all the way through itI need to be thankful more often." [Apr 14, 1997]. Yet financial crises and family conflict recur: "I was terminated for not correcting medication errorsI feel sad and worthless." [Apr 23, 1997]. By her second diary, begun in September 1999, her optimism is threadbare. Her son faces arrest, eviction looms, and her sobriety falters: "We have just returned from the police station where [my son] was arrested on three felony counts" [Sept 1, 1999]. She cycles between gratitude and despair: "Tomorrow we meet with Juvenile JusticeMy son is a criminalmy goals: make my house pretty, get my master's, write a book, find a lover." [Sept 30]. On Oct. 5 she resumes drinking; by November she is penniless, her water shut off, and her landlord threatening eviction. Still, she perseveres through faith and AA: "I picked up my blue chip for 90 days. It was a great meeting." [Jan 25, 2000]. Her final plea is quiet and prayerful: "Lord, please help me to remember that I am loved." [Mar 30, 2000]. Historical records show she later married a woman active in the sober-living community and lived into her early sixties, though hardship continued. Her son's death, soon after these writings, marked a devastating coda. Together, these diaries form a vivid portrait of late twentieth-century lesbian self-definition outside urban or academic contexts, capturing how spirituality, motherhood, and recovery intertwined in one woman's pursuit of dignity and belonging. They are a rare primary-source record of working-class lesbian experience and maternal endurance on the threshold of the new millennium. BIO NOTES (Anonymized): Born in the mid-1950s to an upper-middle-class New Jersey family, the author graduated from a respected northeastern university in the late 1970s, where she was President of the Student Alumni Association and inducted into the AMW honorary society. She later worked in nursing, lived primarily in Florida and the Northeast, identified as lesbian in 1997, and died in the late 2010s. [Note: Full Bio notes are available to serious buyers for research purposes, anonymity is maintained due to ++ living family members and the sensitive contents of the diaries]. Signed by Author(s).…