The Observer Without a Name: Thought, Awareness, and the Question That Cannot Be Answered

Sir, the way we approach the "Who am I?" question, after cutting off all the senses, we finally look at the mind itself. And then I got stuck there, wondering who is this one who is observing the mind? Then I readed your blogs Five, and you said that the The voice of quiet is the same thing - two sides of the same coin: The voice of quiet and consciousness. But it's like I'm standing in a desert, and someone tells me that drinking water will quench my thirst. Now I understand these things - that it's H2O, its past, future, benefits, and drawbacks - but sir, the thirst isn't being quenched. Which thirst do I want to quench? I understand the concept, but the work isn't happening. You talk about understanding oneself, "Who am I?" You know, everything you're saying has a double meaning. The thirst isn't being quenched, the work isn't happening. What do you guys want me to do? I'm stuck on this point: who is this observer? So, sir, I want to know how to move forward from here. Tell me, who is the observer? And is that observer male or female? Think about it and answer. Sir, it has no form, no color, no smell, nothing. But it's just known that someone is reading. Like you explained, we can ask ourselves this question, or go into a thoughtless state, where we are asking ourselves something internally. After cutting off all the senses, we arrive at the mind, and we observe that too. Then we realize there is someone observing. There is something there. Sir, what is this observer? Is there anyone else who would like to answer? Sir, it's just a thought, the thinker, as they say. Thought is memory-based. What is a thought, sir? A word? Does a word see? No, sir, a word doesn't see. It sees memories related to me, but it doesn't actually see them. But the thought comes, "I am seeing," and that comes from memory. If there were no memory, this thought wouldn't arise either, that "I am seeing." But still, I see. You're saying that even without thought, I see or I know. First, understand thought properly. Let's understand what a thought is. A thought is what we say to ourselves internally. That's conscious thought. Now, there's also unconscious thought. What is that? Whatever is stored unconsciously in our memory, that also influences our actions, doesn't it? What is that? Is that a thought? So, one type can be called deliberate thought, where you are aware of what is happening. You know, you say, "I know." Then there's the other kind, where you don't know, but everything is still happening. For example, you might be thinking about something else, but you're still walking. How does walking happen? Doesn't it happen automatically? Like our breathing. One way is when we consciously control our breathing; that can be called pranayama. But how many times a day do you consciously control your breathing, and how many times does it happen automatically? So, when breathing happens automatically, what do we call that? Is it a thought? Is it a language? Is it a memory that you learned in childhood? It's present in animals as well as humans. But when you become aware of that breathing, you say, "I know my breathing." First of all, there's a big question mark here: what is there to know about breathing? The masculine and feminine aspects are connected to the body; that must be very clear. Now, with the advancements of science, it doesn't take much time or effort to change a male into a female or a female into a male. It's not very difficult these days.............