The Core of every household is love. A family so broken with family drama. One parent home, Faith, food and shelter is an open book across the Border. A step-father volunteer to share the burden of having step children. Faith stands in the form of prayers. Life was tough for a child that was different. Hiding behind the wall at the church for cover was a mother. Humming her soul away. Hurt by everyone she ever dated, she share one advice, never trust a man in this world of pain. Jamaica out of many, we're one. sets in the mind of a gifted child. Life must go on.

School is a long walk without water, a sandwich for lunch and a group of community kids wonder without hope, hunger is a daily Ritual, yet it could be a fasting Recipe. The one good thing everyone could still practice how to smile. Pain from poverty rarely cripple the poor man child. Education struggles to come through, perseverance lingers and strengthen ones Soul. Fight the good fight. The golden road, leads to the city. Now it's time to find a family member to turn on the switch to the future. Feeling lost without a brother who was killed by a drunk driver. Life for the Earth Angel feels like a Hurricane. Gilbert disaster ready to quit and turn over a new page. Life wasn't easy in the Country.

This family drifts apart, a brother who went to Heaven way too early visits in a dream bond with Nature my sister. A step father went away on Farm Working, never returns. Poor Gifted child plays with the rest of her siblings, but it never feels the same. Remember fishing and playing in the Rain was a bond and memory, a promise game played by two. Now the future looks dim, with uncertainty, all eyes sets on Kingston City. Church was every Sunday everyone has to attend. If not, chores would feel like a hell bound. chopping woods and cutting grass and feeding Goats. Chickens and Pigs, a family legacy. The Sun and Moon was two of A favorite pass time for neighborhood kids. Everyone would look forward to Nature. Little gifted Earth Angel rarely speaks. A inner Voice paved the way with a glimpse into the future.

An older sister got married and is now a Pastors wife. She never looks back. Family to her was not a poor mother who rarely speaks, or two brothers who can hardly read. A gifted sister who always wants to be alone. Her new family took president over her every being. Everyone knows that love will someday show in every corner of this household. one gifted child would say out loud for everyone to hear. I will bond with Nature, I will bond with Nature. The Birds needs food and water. keep the Trees fresh and Green. Don't forsake the Ocean. Smile with the Sun, Moon and Stars. I will Bond with Nature for the rest of my life. Then take a stand and remember my brother Solomon. He'll forever hold our hands when in sorrows. After High school the gifted child sets eyes on Moving to Kingston for a better life with her Auntie. This life must come to an end. Poverty was more than enough for one family. God guidance sets in motion, complete research for a better life straight ahead. A glimpse of the City life.

At this point it should be clear by now that I am the Gifted child. With my mind set in high gear. I kiss my family goodbye. Wave to all my neighbors and friends. Also find time to hug my two Mango Trees. A few friends were in tears, I try to hold a Brave face to keep my company on the Bus. My Faith walk me to the Bus stop, I could see Jesus face, guiding me to be a Legacy in the Future. Kingston City will curve the Heart of the gifted child. Nature wild and free. I was thinking very deep on the Bus Ride, very loud Reggae music for company. Loud Jamaican Patios in every seat. One Lady even offer me something to eat. I said no thanks then went to sleep. The horn went off on the bus. This was the final Stop.

My Aunt was waiting at the Bus Stop with open arm. I felt like a little Mary Lue, Nick name for frighten Friday. Her smile was larger that life itself. She looks very happy to see me. I know that I could trust my Father's sister, she knows her brother wasn't there for me. So she wants to make up for borrowed time. She took me home, where her husband and her two daughters awaits my arrival. To my surprise, they were poorer than my mother. They were also trying to make ends meet in the City. I felt guilty. Maybe I should stay in the Country with my immediate family. They convince me to think Positive and just live for the moment. Eat and feel free. Faith, food and shelter is all people really need. My eyes was wide open, I said what about money? My Aunt said Money don't grow on Trees. Everyone has chores around here, including you. I said no problem.

My goal was to get a job of any kind, I was 18 yrs old with no experience, just bright eyes, and a big smile. My prayer was a daily bread, I really ask God to send me to College. The first in my family Tree. This would make history, if I have a College Degree. At this point I have not money, just a plan in place, I feel like a Suspense Zone, with a poor Banner hanging from my mindset. Impossible to be me, I must say I did have Twenty Dollars to my name. Food and shelter was already provided. Church was every Sunday. I Prayer Base gets stronger, everyone in the Church cover me in prayer. I feel safe with a Goal in mind. Please help me Jesus to survive this Journey with very little money to keep me focus on this Journey.

One Monday the the light Bulb lights up, when I catch the Flu, for some reason I wasn't feeling very sick, but my Aunt took me to the Neighborhood Doctor for a check up. This could be a clue. She gave me Fifty Dollars, way less that the office visit. My name was called, the door open wide, a very tall Chinese Doctor appears out of nowhere, I personally never seen a tall Chinese before. His demeanor was very welcoming. I started coughing, he took one look at me, and said my Dear the Flu is going around, and your'e no exception to the rule. It found you too. He said I am going to start you out with some cough Medicine for free.

Keep the Fifty dollars your Aunt gave you. My fee is four times this amount. I can see that you just move from the Country, what's your next move, my eyes sparkle with joy. I just started talking. The most I have spoken in years. Well I would love to go to College and get a degree, But at this point I have no Job for support financially. Deep in my Soul I just feel like I could someday afford College. This total stranger of a Doctor gave me a Research. Here is my Business Card. Find the best College around here, or a University. Choose one then come back to me. If your'e going to study you also have to be in a safe and quiet environment. Shop around for secured Apartment. Come back and see me with your findings. I know almost everyone in this City. Just call my name everywhere you go for a test.

To cut a long story short, I call and return with my findings to the Doctors Office. I calculate my monthly expense. To my surprise, he pays My College and New Apartment Rent for one year. I almost fainted. I look up the Sky and Jesus was smiling. He said it's okay my child, I guided you here. Enjoy your study, compliment from me. One day later I was given a new Car to drive to College. The owner of the nearest Supermarket, brought me my grocery every Saturday. My Aunt still couldn't believe her ears. My mother in the Country didn't believe a thing. I was in a gated Apt, with mostly students. I became friends with a few. After a year of study, my Doctor Earth Angel became my best friend. He taught me how to meditate and separate from stress. In my eyes, he was the best. Great Advice from his Gifted Soul.

I did great in College, then landed a Job at the Bank, I was so please with my achievements, I always help everyone in my family Tree. Thanks to Dr Mangue. Everything was going great. After ten years of an open book, A sheltered Bird, needs to fly and smell the Roses. if you love someone set her free, if they returns, then it was meant to be. By now I call Dr Mangue my Mentor. His words meant a lot to me. So I follow his encouragements to the future. He said, someday my Health will fail me even though I am a doctor. I know your Heart will never be the same. Set your sight on America. Stay Focus, continue to Meditate and Pray. call me everyday. My Heart aches too. Believe it when I say to you. Forever we will be more than friends. Even when I am long gone, my Heart will beat for you in Heaven. Keep your circle small, still make a few friends. I will always be with you. Call me everyday collect from American. Think of this for your next journey. Explore Nature and feel free.

Stepping into my new shoes, in the Heart of America. Feeling like a new Queen from the Soul of Jamaica. Still thinking that a better life here is a poor man game. My Roots will always be a Paradise to me. Traveling to another Country is always temporary breeze. As you can see I will always bond with Nature. My Mentor will always be my Primary Doctor, even if God take him a away early. His advice to me, My dear, take notes, I won't be around forever, it worries me that you receive no love from your real Father. Your ability to make it here in Jamaica will be challenged, if I am not around. Keep Healthy, monitor your weight, every headache is associated with Blood Pressure. Give more than you receive. Keep a small circle of friends. Remember everyone birthday. Whatever challenge cross your path, I expected you to carry on. MVP is a Gifted Spirit not a Diagnosis. Learn to give not Borrow or lend. Leave all Stress to fend for themselves, open no room to stress cells. First note, True love never dies. You will be my Earth Angel forever. The only one I ever trusted. The poorest true best friend. I send to College. My gift to you.

This chapter is filled with advice from my Mentor, the smartest Chinese Doctor that lives in Jamaica. He helps so many people, but I can only speak for me. Is humble spirit Bonded with mine. His pass life was not my business, I ask very little of his life. I only know what he told. If he lied at this point nothing matters, I can only see good in everyone. He was all I know, when true love shows its face in my life. My mother was so silent, I know she was hiding something, so she didn't talk much about my father, okay that line came out of nowhere. I must get back on track. Back to my Mentor best attribute I would give you the World, but you never ask for anything. the most important request was to graduate College. I guide you along when you visited the Office, I introduce the medical field to you like a student intern. My method will carry on in your Brain forever. I feel obligated to always see you through. I will continue until I can no longer. Now ten years later, your'e stronger than they think. Take couple more trips to America then decide on your new life. I will still be your second Rock, Your Faith is always first. When I get to Heaven, I will be your Wings on Earth, Smile.

Here's a financial dose of my Kindness, use it PRN. Thanks for being my best friend all these years. We will have a forever Bond. I wish I could tell my grown up children. But it's okay, my way my actions are mine to keep. Regret is no secret. Everything between us was a gift send from a higher Power, we cannot explain without a microscope with the stethoscope right next to it. Only God knows, the accuracy of the future, mankind will dibble and dabble to feel younger. Smile to the unknown. We enjoy each other company with no question sign, we carry this Journey with a straight line. We cross paths in silence. Your safety was always my intention. A gifted friend who has never failed me.

Your Phone calls will always be collected, your welfare is always Safety. Humble yourself in your circle. Be aware, be alert, be on top of things that will affect your ability to think. Use your wise buds, they grow from Trees. Smile when you think of me. I could be your Chinese Palm Tree.

Kick in Nature from time to time, walk the Ocean, sing a song from me. I am everything you are because, I love me. Funny way to think. Just see me. I will be there.

Life in America will not be easy, Know the real from the fake, but say nothing, Compliment all without judgment. Stay away from gossip, that's the poison that's eating the Heart of Americans. Stay focus and stay Low. You will always be my assistance, Allow no one to cripple your soul or give you a collapse lungs. Just life and love freely. Your Heart will guide you to true love in America. It's very hard to find the right Valve that will open with honesty. Smile forever, put that Velvet Teddy Bear in the closet. Most memorable birthday gift. someday cut it open for an even bigger surprise.

I remember when I gave you that Birthday gift, your eyes lights up like a Christmas Tree, when you see the size. Fun memories. Meditation was one key to our happiness. Silence is golden with a young Caribbean Jamaican Queen. I know this reader is thinking way beyond this page.

Anyway this is my prescription for you, Happiness is first, money alone will not cut it. Love is a daily bread, Faith will uplift it. Meditation is your strength more is better than enough. Peace, no one can buy Peace you have to find it within. Allow no man to use you. Know the sign, I shared enough wisdom to last for a lifetime Movie. Call on me everyday, Hope to see you again. My Heart will always beats love for you. My daily emotion Pill. Right now Jamaica is loosing my best friend. A country girl was my right Wing. Forever bonded in complete silence.

When I stepped off the plane in America, I was just a visitor with a small suite Case with two weeks of clothes and a very large Teddy Bear for a happy memory note. My Visa was for ten years, so the immigration Officer didn't ask much question when he saw who my Mentor was. He gave a letter, just in case of any hassle. I was ask to throw away my Mangoes but I was okay with that. I must say, America is the most beautiful Country in the World, I feel like I was going to learn so much in this Country. I was fascinated by lights, so much lights, everywhere I go. Jamaica was like a Flash light, now America is the King and Queen of lights, whatever that means. I was happy to see, my life lights up to new Diversity. Yes the simple things fascinates me. Everyone has an accent to me, people compliment me on my Jamaican Accent often enough. Patois is my English. Sorry please don't expect this book to be in perfect English. It would never be written by me. Now lets move right along, Outside waiting in the very crowded area was my stepfather who help to raised me in Jamaica, and his new wife. I feel welcome by both. all roads leads to New Jersey. The ride home was a little awkward

I haven't see my step father in Ten Years. He never return from Farm working, He wasn't there when I graduated College. So a lot was on my mind. I was meeting his wife for the first time. She was a Christian so I feel safe with her. All she talk about was taking me to Church, where my Step father was a Deacon.

My eyes and mind was in high gear, trying to process what my Mentor told me about Survival in America. First my dear you have to get Certified in the Medical field, start at the shortest course then work your way up. So the first six weeks Certificate, I accomplish was Certified home health Aide, Then I went for Certified Nurses Assistance. Both courses was like a piece of Cake base on what I already know from Dr Mangue. I was like a little Minnie him at his office, 1 Regal Plaza Kingston. Bunny was also his right hand help, in the Office. My next step was finding a job in Healthcare. I settled in with the most wonderful family in the World. The Mounts family was so welcoming. I took care of Dorothy who is now a Guardian Angel, Everyone was very nice and caring. Every weekend I would go home and go to Church with my Step Father and his wife Evelyn. I was appreciative of their help. I just wish my brothers were here. But I rarely talk about it with my step father. He said his wife would help him to get his children over here, but it never happen. Only God knows why. I can only pray and thank God that he gave me a free pass to come to America. I just love the smell of Nature. It was everywhere. Birds, Oak Trees, Ocean, a lot of Farm Lands. Everything a poor Country girl would cherish. I did walk a lot by myself. I love to talk with Jesus on my long walks. He always assure me that he was always by my side. in the World that my Creator built, he didn't waste any time to find me a Husband, After six months in the Country, out of no where the dating scene sends someone very single my way. We wasn't very compatible, but were very single, and ready to mingle. I was new from Jamaica, He Just moved from Detroit Michigan, into his new career, a Prosthetic Technician. I was a live in Aide. He use to waste his time correcting my English, I could see the pain on his face when I speak in my Jamaican Patois. I use to drive him crazy when I didn't try to speak proper. Oh that was so funny to me. After one year with my Patient she Expired to her home in the sky. Heaven Gates welcome her home. After just dating six months. I was pregnant, with my pride and Joy. I was excited when I was told that we were having a boy, I shout out loud thank you Jesus. Immediately after that we got Married. I was already three Months Pregnant. I trust God that this Union would last. But he has other plans for both of us. Don't change yourself to be someone else. Just be there for your son. Jesus whisper to me.