Find Me

A young man embarks on a desperate search for the truth in this chilling, razor-sharp thriller

Five years ago, Rosa walked to the pier in the dead of night, looked into the swirling water and jumped. She was a brilliant young Cambridge student who had just lost her father. Her death was tragic, but not unexpected.

But is that what really happened?

Her death was ruled a suicide. But Rosa’s boyfriend, Jar, still can’t let go. He sees Rosa everywhere—a face on the train, a figure on the cliff. He is obsessed with proving that she is still alive. And then he gets an email.

“Find me, Jar. Find me, before they do…”

As Jar digs into the past, he enters a dark underworld where nothing is as it seems and no one can be trusted. He is soon thrust into the heart of a larger intrigue that may finally shed some light on Rosa’s death…even as it dangerously threatens his own life.

"The pages all but turn themselves as the story unfolds in taut chapters alternating between Rosa's journal entries and Jar's frantic quest. Monroe adds more voices in the book's second half, keeping the guess-who's-crazy/guilty ball in the air until the all-consuming reveal. Pacing is crisp and the plot is credible, but it's the cast of expertly crafted, psychologically ambiguous characters that rivets."-Publisher Weekly, starred review "Monroe's debut thriller is a paranoiac's dream with plenty of twists. [A]n exciting read that combines the thrill of a spy novel and the intimacy of a coming-of-age tale. Fast-paced, satisfying, and, ultimately, life-affirming."-Kirkus Reviews"A beautifully written thriller with well-drawn characters and a twisting, gripping plot that will keep you guessing until the very last page."-J.P. Delaney, New York Times bestselling author of The Girl Before"Readers will easily fall into step with sensitive, quick-witted Jar, and Monroe's journalism experience lends realistic detail to the back-channel investigation. Smart, well written, and tangled in unpredictable twists-a top-notch psychological thriller."-Booklist"Intelligent writing, original and disturbing ideas and a tightly coiled and crafted plot."-Daily Mail "A cleverly constructed, beautifully paced and utterly gripping novel that delivers both thrills and a heart-tugging love story in equal measures."-Irish independent"Find Me is a marvelously suspenseful book that keeps you turning pages well past midnight. You'll be riveted on what its very sympathetic narrator goes through to find the love of his life. She supposedly committed suicide five years ago. But what about all the signs that she's still alive? You'll keep guessing until the final mind-bending twist." -Alice LaPlante, New York Times bestselling author of Coming of Age at the End of Days and Turn of Mind"Intricately woven and heart-stoppingly believable, this has bestseller written all over it." -Clare Mackintosh, New York Times bestselling author of I Let You Go"Find Me is gripping, pointing you toward the worst possibility on every page in this deeply sinister, drip-drip kind of way. And yet there is a lot of true love in there too, creating an endearing balance. This is an intricate story that will stay with you as you read about government, science, and all open-ended missing person cases." -Caroline Kepnes, author of Hidden Bodies and You"The most ingenious thriller you will read this year. I couldn't put it down." -M. J. Arlidge, Sunday Times bestselling author of Eeny meeny"This intricate puzzle of a thriller takes us into the far reaches of the Dark Web and the depths of the human heart. Simultaneously romantic and horrifying, this is a treat for everyone who loved le Carre's The Constant Gardener."-Lucie Whitehouse, author of Before We Met and Keep You Close"Beautifully written and expertly plotted, J.S. Monroe's Find Me had me hooked within the first chapter and Would. Not. Let. Me. Go. This is a captivating, utterly chilling read, the kind of thriller that will keep you turning pages long past your bedtime, and leave you wide awake long after you're done. First class." -Owen Laukkanen, author of The Stolen Ones and The Watcher in the Wall