Devocalized Woman: A Generational Curse - Tapa dura

God let me know early, in life that I had to speak up. I did not understand nor did I want to; but I began to realize I am an elocutionist in that I must speak-play a part for which no one has the script but Him. There is no time to rehearse lines; I have to live them. Revelations are opened to me as I go along; it is not that I will never be able to plan, it is that I will be able to do God's plan. I live the plan that gets me to my purpose and His will for my life, the life of those I encounter, and the people I love. Have you ever noticed that the invisible can be seen with the naked eye? It is relevant that people see you in the condition you were when those mighty winds blew, and made you seem to have been swept away! What people want and need to hear is, "what really happens and how to stop it from happening again and again. They want to know how to stop that destroyer. Therefore, the ministry of reassurance and encouragement are in place for us to increase our faith and to heal us in this constant battle. It has been a privilege to learn that, "He will not suffer thy foot to be moved" (Psalm 121:3; ASV). It may seem that I go from carnal to spiritual in an effort to express what we may go through when we try to be who God is making us to be, in our own power. There are no automatic changes that make us visibly glow at the sound of his name. We work hard for our existence and often wrestle within ourselves more so than with outside forces.