Life At the End of the Tunnel: A Widow’s Story of Loss and then Finding Life at the End of the Tunnel - Tapa blanda

From new author Kimberly (Brue) Silva, comes the memoir about losing one's husband through a painful and detailed dying process, the attempt to find her "new normal", and the finding of love and blessings from beyond... We were all around him when he died....some of us holding his hands, some touching his arm gently; my 7 year old daughter had her pinky finger gently wrapped around his. There was a moment when he pulled back his spirit, almost like he wanted to stay. And then he let go.... and traveled ahead of us into the light. The months leading up to this moment had been a whirlwind, the downhill spiral starting only three months prior. The violent shock of the initial news, the next-day brain surgery, the scary seizures, the many pills, wiping his tears when he was scared, shaving his head when too many were falling out, feeding him strawberry ice cream while 5 year old Katie wound silly bands around his thin wrists while he was in bed, and eventual teary-eyed whispers of "you can go, the kids and I will be okay". We had barely had time to start to swallow the news received in mid-March and now we had to digest this moment where he is gone, only three months later. This was the latest in an odd year, and the next year would be unbelievable as well. As I was going through these last two years of my life, there were many things that happened that didn't have an explanation. Some of these seemed to be guided from above, others should have answers in this world but I couldn't find any..... I had searched for information on what to expect as my husband was losing his battle to cancer. Such as how does the body change, as he starts to lose his battle? What would be the stages of death physically, mentally, emotionally? How do I best meet his needs while still maintaining myself, my family, and our home? How do I spoon feed an adult? Do I choose hospice at home? How do you actually tell him he's going to die? What does it feel like to look at him each day and know your 39 year old husband is going to die soon? What is it like to hold the hand of your husband as his life slips into the next world? What does it feel like to pick out the clothes he will wear in his casket? What's it like to know there's a tsunami on due course that's going to change your life forever? And later, what's it like to live and love again and also have countless blessings fall into your lap? After watching death take my dear husband, I was flooded with signs that he was around us, helping us, loving us, and saying "hi". Countless blessings started coming our way - the coins, the visions, the electronics and songs coming on out of the blue - the overwhelming signs were all over the place. It was clear that his life didn’t end, and in fact it may have only been the beginning. Then only four months after he passed, I met the man who would change my new life. I quickly realized the magic was just starting; the signs were coming daily now, and the feeling of being "guided" was almost overwhelming. Not only was I living again, but I was living in a world of blessings and little ‘hello’s’ from Kevin, so powerful I almost felt unworthy.....if it weren't for the fact that I felt like there was a certain path being laid out in front of me (in front of the new "us"). This book walks through these life experiences, taking you through the physical and emotional journey of a world that has historically been rather secretive. Real emotion, in real time. Whether you are watching someone close to you die, or not, it can give one perspective of saying goodbye, and then saying hello to life at the end of the tunnel.

Kimberly is a first-time author who was inspired to pen her first memoir after the difficult death of her first husband at the age of 39, also helping their three small kids survive the ordeal. Growing up as a scientist, writing was never a passion until a therapeutic need struck her heart and gave her motivation to help others by telling her story - of loss and then finding love and life at the end of the tunnel, which paved the way for her "new normal". Kimberly is now happily married again, and enjoys spending time with her loving husband Joe, and their combined family of 5 kids, outside of Providence, RI. She also enjoys philosophy, spirituality, and quantum physics as reading and discussion interests on the side. She is planning additional books on the topic of life - one to be co-written with her children, from their perspective, and another that will take the form of a biography of her first husband's path in life - perhaps a symbolic prequel to Life at the End of the Tunnel.