God, If You're Not Up There, I'm F*cked: Tales of Stand-Up, Saturday Night Live, and Other Mind-Altering Mayhem - Tapa dura

"Hammond's moving memoir contains surprising detours... [His] breezy style and facile storytelling will keep readers entertained even while reading about his struggle with alcoholism... This funny man's serious life can be an inspiration to all." -- Publishers Weekly (Starred Review)

From a harrowing childhood defined by abuse, to an adulthood of alcoholism and self-mutilation, psychiatric hospitalizations and misdiagnoses, to the peak of fame and success as the longest-tenured cast member of "Saturday Night Live", "God, If You're Not Up There, I'm F*cked" delves into the darkest corners of Darrell Hammond's life, on both sides of the camera, with brutal honesty and a fierce comic wit. While his hilarious dead-on impressions of Bill Clinton, Dick Cheney, Chris Matthews, and dozens of other prominent figures earned him access to the inner sanctums of American politics-including meeting three presidents-Hammond's talent and success masked a terrifying and uncontrollable darkness. Suffering from debilitating and largely undiagnosed trauma, Hammond experienced horrifying flashbacks, shocking benders, a hair-raising stint in a Bahamian jail, and a long night in a Harlem crack house before he turned his life around. His long fight for sobriety, filled with heartbreaking relapses, was propelled by a desire to do right by his young daughter and to understand why he felt so low even as he reached the heights of success. Throughout, Hammond dishes on fellow SNL cast members and celebrity hosts, and lays bare the real inner workings of this iconic television show.