Julian Drew “lives” with his father, his abusive stepmother and her children, but it’s not a life anyone would want. He buys his first NB on October 25 at Osco Drug in Tucson. Green spiral. 80 pages. 34 lines per page. He tries to write but his pen won’t cooperate. Then he develops a secret code. Mysterious notebooks record his fight for survival and recovery. Gripping and poignant, this story will hook readers from the first page.
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James M. Deem is the author of numerous books for young readers, including 3 NB of Julian Drew, Bodies from the Ice: Melting Glaciers and the Rediscovery of the Past, and Faces From the Past. Mr. Deem lives outside of Phoenix, Arizona.Excerpt. © Reprinted by permission. All rights reserved.:
my eyes saw
in my dream
in MY dream
IN MY DREAM
my MM bought
The lock is on
my hand is trying 2 write
TRYING 2 write
my brain dreamed about Ur letter
until last night
now no dream
no dream now
Why won"t my pen do this?
Everything is like watching myself in a mirror
My eyes are tired of mirror-watching me
My eyes are tired
but my hand is trying.
My brain is thinking of some 1.
It is thinking of U.
Me + U
My brain can"t stand it
4 yr is a long time. 4 yr is 4ever.
All it thinks about is U.
Don"t think about THEM, brain.
Just think about U.
My hand is going 2 WRITE.
My hand IS going 2 write.
My hand is going 2 write U if it K1775 me.
No 1 can stop me.
43 can"t stop me.
543 can"t stop me.
There are 2 many things 2 write.
My hand will write 1 THING.
Some THING my brain thinks about.
My brain had a nowhere dream 4 20 nights. My body was nowhere.
It was dusty, smelly, old.
My eyes saw a book on a shelf. It was Ur book.
My fingers found a letter inside.
The letter was from U.
It was so real my ears heard the envelope crackle.
My nose could smell Ur perfume.
But the dream stopped be4 my eyes could read the letter + now my brain
doesn"t dream this dream anymore.
What was inside the letter? What did U want 2 tell me?
My hand wrote
(maybe it"s the pen"s fault).
This NB is green
80-page spiral w/34 lines on a page
5440 lines total 2 write on.
This NB says Econo-line on the cover.
This NB was purchased 335WP TO25 in Osco Drug at Mercado
Plaza on University Dr.
My brain wants 2 remember everything about it.
The cashier w/the Janice nametag waited on me. She was
wearing a T-shirt that said (2 me) 170V3 Rick. My brain was wondering what
it would be like 2 be Rick. My brain was playing crazy thoughts.
Only Janice 7OV35 Rick, not me.
A me w/o U.
My hand wrote Ur name (even if the pen crossed it out). Then the
pen drew a box around each letter + wrote every letter of the alphabet on top
of each letter in Ur name just 2 make sure no 1 can tell what was there.
Just in case.
Writing Ur name was like seeing Ur face + holding Ur hand. Like
talking 2 U again, breathing Ur air. It makes me feel scared. My hand was
shaking. My brain was thinking about doing this 4 a long time. My hand
decided 2 be a little braver + try this. My hand is going 2 TRY.
2 be braver.
My brain thought about starting (really starting) this NB every day.
Could U tell? Writing this is like trying 2 walk after being in a coma since
birth. Maybe not birth. Maybe just 4 4 yr. Writing this is like trying 2 talk after
having my mouth taped shut 4 4 yr. My hand can"t write things that easy. It
feels funny. My hand doesn"t know what 2 write.
My hand knows what 2 write but the pen won"t let it.
Do U understand?
What my hand wants 2 write
is hard 2 write
What the pen won"t write U is
Maybe my brain could think thoughts 2 U w/o talking + U would
know them. But it doesn"t know how. All it knows how 2 do is think in secret
code. My hand writes secret code 4 some words. Maybe the pen will let me
write a secret code just 4 U.
What could my code be?
OK what about this?
The code is: 1M155U.
1 M155 U. Do U understand it?
Here"s another: 170V3U.
Now my brain says 2 hide this from THEM.
Maybe there will be more 2 morrow if my hand has something 2
This is 4 U, even if the pen won"t let me write Ur name. Do U
understand? My brain has been thinking about things 2 write U all day. It has
23 things 2 tell U. It remembers them all.
Thing 1: We left WV on A14: 3 yr 6 mo + 25 d ago (do U want 2 know the
min + sec?)
Thing 2: 43 drove the car away at 202WA. 543 was right beside 43.
Thing 3: My eyes saw (but no 1s eyes saw me) as we passed under the
streetlight at the corner.
Thing 4: My brain could never 4get that time. My brain could never 4get that
time was 4bidden.
Thing 5: 43 didn"t want the neighbors" eyes 2 see. But U can"t ignore the
Thing 6: Emma (the only impt person) was sitting in her car seat next 2 me.
Thing 7: Her eyes were C.
Thing 8: We moved 2 Tucson AZ.
Thing 9: It took 17 1⁄2 d 2 get there.
Thing 10: We had 1 blowout going 70 across MO.
Thing 11: The car broke down near Santa Rosa NM.
Thing 12: We got 2 eat a real dinner there in a real restaurant called the Club
Thing 13: We stopped at places 2 sightsee. Indian mounds, petrified forests,
meteor craters. All kinds of natural + unnatural disasters.
Thing 14: We have lived in 5 houses in 3 yr + 6 mo + 25 d. Pink, yellow,
blue, gray w/red rock in the front yard, + gray w/blue rock.
Thing 15: My body went 2 4 different jr hi schools be4 hi school + now 2
different hi schools. Only they weren"t hi schools, they were bye schools. My
brain stayed home. As soon as my feet knew the way 2 school, it was time 2
move. 1 day we were there + next we were somewhere else. It was like
leaving WV only now we don"t leave in the middle of the night.
Thing 16: There are no such things as friends. Just watching + thinking about
being friends w/them. Some people seem like they would be nice friends, but
their eyes don"t see me.
Sometimes it bothers me.
Sometimes it doesn"t.
Thing 17: Now we are in Tempe which is next 2 PHX.
Thing 18: We moved here 08.
Thing 19: That means we have been here 26 d + 3 hr + 4? min. That means
nothing has changed.
Thing 20: 43 is trying to get lucky in PHX. 43 thinks it will be better here. 43
said no 1 can make a living in Tucson. 43 says the territory is better here. 43
has a new job + only has 2 travel every other wk.
Thing 21: The house we"re in now is small, 2 BR + a garage.
Thing 22: Besides Emma + 43 + me, there are 4 people living here now:
Roger Rebecca Roxie + 543.
That"s all the pen will let me write 4 now.
Except Thing 23: 1M155U.
We are poor. Not like WV where we OWNED a nice house. We"re
not on food stamps, but there"s not much money
4 SOME of US
THEY sold the house + got rid of everything when we moved 2 AZ.
We rented a house w/furniture (the pink 1) in Tucson 4 a while but it cost 2
much. So we moved 2 an empty house but there wasn"t enough money 4
furniture. Except the couch + coffee table (BUT DONT PUT YOUR FEET ON
THEM), the kitchen table + chairs.
Except 1 KINGSIZE BED (+ dresser + chest of drawers).
43 made Emma + the 3Rs (that"s Roger Rebecca + Roxie) + me
beds out of 2 X 4s + a sheet of plywood using a plan from some doityourself
magazine. Only 43s not very handy + they sagged in the middle. So 43
stacked 4 cinder blocks 2 make a tower under the middle of the plywood 2
hold it up. We didn"t even have mattresses 4 them, so we slept in sleeping
bags on top of the plywood. A few months ago THEY got Emma Rebecca +
Roxie real beds. That"s because they"re girls. The BOYS still have plywood
beds. At night, my ears hear the plywood scraping against the cinder blocks
when 1 of us turns over.
My clothes are Kmart shirts (lucky) or outlet shirts (unlucky).
They are covered w/sticky XXXs 2 mark the bad spots (but ALL SALES ARE
FINAL). My pants are always jeans that are 2 short or 2 loose. My shoes are
always 75%-off sneakers.
DONT SAY YOU NEVER GOT ANYTHING.
DONT SAY YOU NEVER GOT
We keep our clothes in cardboard boxes. Mine are a Lemon Brillo
box + a Lemon Joy box. All my clothes smell like lemon soap.
14AT3 lemons but 170V3U
It"s hard 4 my hand 2 write 2 U. 2 many things the pen can"t tell
U. 2 MANY. What if SOMEBODY sees this? What if SOMEBODY finds out?
So this NB goes in my DD on the B in the B under everything.
There are things my mouth doesn"t talk about w/any 1. There are
things my brain doesn"t think. There are things, so many THINGS.
Some days it makes me crazy. How can these THINGS stay in
my brain? It"s like an atomic bomb waiting 2 explode. It is like waiting 2 D.
My hand wants 2 write more 4 U. But it is scared. It told U so
much the other day.
Maybe it can write 1 more THING.
1 small thing.
My GB is my garage bedroom (SHARED w/Roger). It"s not really
a GB, just an old carport that some 1 bricked up (front + back). But it
reminds me of our garage in WV.
It has a concrete floor w/oil stains + cinder block walls. The
ceiling is 24 cinder blocks high. There are 816 cinder blocks in the whole
There are 4 wooden beams holding up the ceiling.
The ceiling is plywood, painted white.
There are 5 small brown spiders living in the 2 front corners. 3 on
the R, 2 on the L.
Sometimes baby lizards crawl through a crack between the cinder
blocks in the R rear corner.
The door out of the GB 2 the house has 3 glass window panes.
The windows have a curtain inside the house, not on the side of the garage. It
used 2 be an outside door.
No. It is still an outside door.
Against the back wall is the old carport storage room. My brain
calls it SR, but it"s really my (SHARED) closet. SR has a window. If the door
2 SR is open just right, my eyes can look at the back of the house across
the alley. Some 1 from my new school lives in that house. That some 1 is S.
170V3GB + SR
But sometimes my brain thinks about UFOs. It tells my eyes 2
look 4 stars 2 find 1 that moves. Sometimes my brain wants a UFO 2 land in
the back yard + take me away.
A big glowing ball would land softly + a door would open. A silver
alien would wave 2 me + say: COME HERE, LEAVE THIS PLACE BEHIND.
My brain wouldn"t think twice about packing. Lemon Brillo boxes are easy 2
carry on2 a spaceship. My brain wouldn"t even think once about getting hurt.
My ears would hear whatever the alien said. My body would go 2 another
planet. My mouth would learn A-talk + eat A-food. My body would sleep in an
A-garage + wear cheap A-clothes bought from cheap A-stores 4 the rest of
my life. As long as there were new As 2 take care of me.
Sometimes another planet could only be a better place.
My GB doesn"t have much furniture. 2 plywood beds + 2 cinder
block towers, 2 sleeping bags + pillows, 4 cardboard boxes, + my new desk
+ chair. Not new really, but new 2 me. Every time we move 2 a house they
throw my desk + chair out. This is D4 + C5. It"s easier to find Cs than Ds.
But it"s easier 2 make a D out of crates, like the 1 in the pink house.
This time they were sitting in front of a house down the street 1
morning. They were waiting 4 the garbage man. That means me.
543 SAID: THEY MIGHT HAVE BUGS. YOU DONT KNOW
WHERE THEYVE BEEN.
170V3 D4 + C5
543 SAID: YOU ALWAYS GO THROUGH OTHER PEOPLES
The wood on top of my D is chipped on the edges + some 1
scribbled on the top w/crayons. The drawers are warped + the knobs are
loose. The C is made out of molded plastic. The seat is cracked. It has 1
short leg + it wobbles. It doesn"t matter what they look like, because they are
The worst part about my GB is it doesn"t have any heat; it was in
the 40s last night. The other worst part is Roger.
The best part is when no 1 bothers me (which is now when my
hand is writing).
My hand has told U a lot (the pen helped).
Do U understand what it means?
My hand couldn"t write 4 a few days, because it didn"t know what
So now it will tell U about school.
University Hi School
14AT3 MAT4. My teacher wears old clothes that smell like bad
BO. 2day he gave me an F on my homework.
14AT3 59AN154. My teacher gave me an F on my test. Que tal?
My body sat there in back of some 1 w/long red hair feeling like my eyes
were going 2 C. Instead my brain thought about U.
My brain thinks about U a lot, it thinks about U whenever it feels
bad. Which is most of the time now. Sometimes at school (sitting in class)
my brain says 2 itself:
My brain says it: One-M-one-five-five-U. It says it over + over like it
has magic power. Just like Franny does it in Franny + Zooey, my 2nd favorite
book after Catcher in the Rye. She keeps reciting this prayer. My brain
doesn"t believe in God most of the time, but my prayer is 1M155U + my brain
can say it 4ever.
That is school. There is nothing more 2 say about it. My hand is
writing this in 6th period study hall, but there is nothing 2 say. School is a D
place + so is home.
Maybe there will be more 2 write later.
After school 543 swamped me w/jobs, even though every 1 else
was watching TV. Somehow Roger + Rebecca always get their work done
without my eyes seeing them. My brain thinks 543 does it 4 them. They also
had a snack 2day. After school my eyes saw 4 glasses (1 4 Emma + 1 4
Roxie) sitting in the kitchen sink. Each 1 had juice rings on the bottom.
ME: Is there any juice?
SOME OF US are not allowed 2 have anything after
school except water, unless 543 feels like it.
543: NO WERE GOING 2 HAVE DINNER SOON.
Then my mouth said: But everybody else had some.
Sometimes my mouth interrupts.
543: NO THEY DIDNT.
My mouth said: Whose glasses are those?
My eyes were looking at the 1s in the sink + 543 knew it. 543
was lying 2 me.
543: YOUD BETTER DO YOUR CHORES + GET IN2 YOUR
It was time 2 clean the kids" bathroom. This is always my job
everyday, 543 hasn"t cleaned 1 bathroom since THEY got married. The sink,
the toilet, the tub, the floor. Sponge, scrubber, vacuum, mop. 543 checks,
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